Monday, November 29, 2010

32

At the moment, I'm getting glares from the hipsters in Starbucks. Not their usual "I'm a hipster so I have to look at you like this. No offense." glares, but glares that say "You're a lower class pig and you need to go die." They can tell I'm homeless. They didn't care before.

But then again, before today life was an illusion.

Before today the hipsters didn't give me a second glance. Before today the girl behind the counter would give me a kind smile as I walked in, but she glares at me too.

I'll explain.

The night before last I woke up and everyone and everything was gone. No family, no heaters, no furniture. I was asleep on the floor with a rat sniffing me to make sure I wasn't food.

I got up and looked all around the apartment, thinking maybe, for whatever odd reason, they moved to another room and didn't wake me.

But I couldn't find them.

Then I went down to the first floor, to the rooms that wouldn't open. This time they were all unlocked. The first few were empty save for a chair or oddly placed toilet here and there. Then I tried the ones on the other side.

The first one had two skeletons sitting on a bed, huddled together. It was Bruce and Marta. The second room had two more skeletons, one was a full grown person in a sagging dress. That was Latoya. And in her arms was a little skeleton. Crystal.

In the third room the Three Stooges were gathered around a 55 gallon drum that probably housed a fire to keep them warmed. Uncle Bob was in the corner with a bottle of Jack Daniels in his hand.

The last room housed Reg's skeletal remains. He was in the fetal posission. I think he died seeing demons all around.

They had all been dead for years and no one knew. How could no one know?

Well I was freaked. I screamed, I cried, I pounded against the walls, scratched my skin, pulled my hair. I did anything to try and wake up from that nightmare. That's all I wanted to believe it was. Just a horrible nightmare the demon made me see.

But it wasn't.

I found a cop. When I tried to talk I just screamed. All I could say was "They're dead!" and I took him by the hand and led him to the apartment.

The bodies are gone now. I saw each one being taken away. I don't know what they'll do with them. I doubt they'll get a proper burial.

Before I could leave, the owner of the apartment chewed my ass out about being on private property. He said I was lucky he wouldn't press charges.

The kind owner I was told about was an illusion. The furniture was an illusion. The heaters were illusions. And the family. They weren't illusions. No, they were ghosts. Just as real as you and I, but most people can't see them. They really did take me in. I did belong to a loving family.

It just couldn't last forever.

Well the cop gave me the address of a shelter. To him I'm just another hobo. I wasn't expecting anything to turn out like on one of those miracle shows dad use to watch on PAX. (do they still call it PAX?) No one was going to offer me a home and there wasn't a snowball's chance in hell I'd turn out to be an angel and instill good fortune and blessings upon the family the family that found it in their heart to help.

No, I'm just another hobo who threw her life away.


I might stay at the shelter. Maybe not. I know of another homeless community near by I can go to. I know for a fact that this one isn't an illusion because I've seen cops check it out every couple of days or so to either find runaways or bust someone for smoking a little joint to take away the pain.


I just realized something. This laptop isn't an illusion. I wonder how a ghost got his hands on this.

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Ashley

Ashley is a high school student I've had the privilege of talking to. She, like me, is haunted by the demon. Only it seems to her, he's a bit more mean. You can read here. She'll be updating as often as she can. To all my own followers, please follow her. She thinks, or thought, she was crazy until we started talking.

Now this is a convo we just had on MSN/Windows Live (whatever the hell it is you call it). One of my old friends is back.

Alexa Mosley says
What up, Ash?
Ashley Nichole says
I can't get out of my room
I tried locking and unlocking it and it wont open
Alexa Mosley says
Is anyone home with you?
Ashley Nichole says
yes everyone is home
Alexa Mosley says
And have they tried?
Ashley Nichole says
i tried the windows and nothing worked
noone hears me i heasr them and i keep banging on the door but noone can hear me
Alexa Mosley says
Don't bang or yell
Try asking the demon to let you out
but ask nicely
Ashley Nichole says
it didnt work
should i wait?
Alexa Mosley says
I don't know
Do you have your phone with you?
Ashley Nichole says
please dont call the police or anything
Alexa Mosley says
I won't
Ashley Nichole says
and yeah
Alexa Mosley says
And does your mom/dad/siblings have cells? If so, try texting them to get their attention
Ashley Nichole says
okay
should should i say
**what
Alexa Mosley says
Help, I'm locked in my room or something like that
Ashley Nichole says
okay
no service
Alexa Mosley says
D:
Ashley Nichole says
i just need to calm down
Alexa Mosley says
You don't have any medical conditions, do you? Other than panic attackes?
Ashley Nichole says
no
Alexa Mosley says
Ok good.
Ashley Nichole says
well i have claustrophobia but my room is kindof big so im fine
Alexa Mosley says
Your comp works. Try messaging friends to get their attention
Ashley Nichole says
okay
i cant log onto facebook
it says invalid password
Alexa Mosley says
:\
No friends on MSN?
Ashley Nichole says
nope this msn account is for twitter only
Alexa Mosley says
Oh
I have no clue what to tell you
Maybe try and wait it out?
Ashley Nichole says
yeah ill try that
Alexa Mosley says
Or download skype and try calling someone on that?
Ashley Nichole says
i dont have webcam or a microphone
Alexa Mosley says
Oh
Crap
Ashley Nichole says
i know this isnt bad luck this time someting is up
Alexa Mosley says
Hold on, I'm going to go get my friend and see what he says
brb
Ashley Nichole says
okay
Alexa Mosley says
hi
haveyoutriedjigglingthehandle
Ashley Nichole says
yes.
Alexa Mosley says
Ok I'm back aaaaannnnd....
wtf
I didn't write that
Ashley Nichole says
omg thats why i was freaking out
Alexa Mosley says
D:
*hug*
Ashley Nichole says
thats what the person always writes on my twitter account with no spaces
Alexa Mosley says
>__<>__>
Ashley Nichole says
ahh icic
Alexa Mosley says
But he's usually pretty good for figuring out stuff like this. :\
Ashley Nichole says
um someone just walked i my room
Alexa Mosley says
O__o
who?
How?
Ashley Nichole says
idk and idk
Alexa Mosley says
Is the door still open?
Ashley Nichole says
hes just staring at me
no
Alexa Mosley says
Is it Him?
Ashley Nichole says
no its someone else
Alexa Mosley says
Whatdoes he look like?
Ashley Nichole says
i feel like i have met him though
he has a black cape with a hood on
Alexa Mosley says
Pale face?
Ashley Nichole says
yes
Alexa Mosley says
Young or old?
Ashley Nichole says
young
Alexa Mosley says
:D
I know him
Ashley Nichole says
:O
Alexa Mosley says
He's one of the monks
he's nice
Or he was to me
I feel bad for what I did to him...
Ashley Nichole says
i feel alittle umcomfortable cause he keeps staring at me
Alexa Mosley says
Tell him you're a friend of Alexa
Ashley Nichole says
he just cocked his head
Alexa Mosley says
Tell him you're friends with the girl from the room
Ashley Nichole says
hi
Alexa Mosley says
... Hi
Ashley Nichole says
howareyouareyoudoingwell
Alexa Mosley says
Yes
Why are you trying like the demon?
Or has that been you the entire time?
*typing
Ashley Nichole says
ashleyletmeusethecomputer
Alexa Mosley says
She's very kind to do so
Ashley Nichole says
jsutsoyoucantellapartourtyping
iforgiveyou
Alexa Mosley says
I kind of miss you
Ashley Nichole says
ijustwantedtoknowthatyouareokay
Alexa Mosley says
Yeah, I'm ok.
I've got a new family.
Are you mad that I left?
Ashley Nichole says
imnotmadimsad
youaresobrave
Alexa Mosley says
I'm sorry
I had to leave
But now
No one remembers me
Ashley Nichole says
imsorry
Alexa Mosley says
It's not your fault. The demon did it.
Ashley Nichole says
hejustwantedtohelpyou
Alexa Mosley says
No, he wanted me to help.
I was selfish to run.
Ashley Nichole says
imgladyouhaveagreatlifenow
Alexa Mosley says
Yeah, living in an abandoned appartment is great.
At least it's something.
Ashley Nichole says
hewontstop
Alexa Mosley says
I know
Ashley Nichole says
listenihavetogoilltrytotalktoyoulater
goodbye
Alexa Mosley says
Goodbye
Ash, are you there?
Ashley Nichole says
yeah
Oh my gosh
Alexa Mosley says
?
Ashley Nichole says
My door is open
Alexa Mosley says
:)
Ashley Nichole says
Why
Alexa Mosley says
Why what?
Ashley Nichole says
Why did he come here
Alexa Mosley says
I don't know


*Updated*

Ashley Nichole says
thunder
Alexa Mosley says
I like thunder
Ashley Nichole says
thats usually a sign hes comming
well for me
Alexa Mosley says
:\
I don't think my little friend was supposed to be there
Ashley Nichole says
the guy that i lent the computer too
Alexa Mosley says
Yeah
He works for the demon
Ashley Nichole says
why
Alexa Mosley says
They all do
Ashley Nichole says
i feel like i know him
Alexa Mosley says
I guess my friend is like an apprentice to the others
I don't know him. Or what I mean it, I didn't know him before I was captured
Ashley Nichole says
did he look familiar to u though
Alexa Mosley says
No. not really
Maybe a little
Ashley Nichole says
Oh my Gosh
Alexa Mosley says
What>
Ashley Nichole says
I KNOW WHERE HES FROM
Alexa Mosley says
Where?
Ashley Nichole says
Well I'm on speech team, and theres this topic called extemp and its politics. He was the dark and mysterious guy but I always talked to him, he was a senior last year.
Alexa Mosley says
Was he into occult things?
Alexa Mosley says
Hm.
And you don't know whathappened to him after highschool?
Ashley Nichole says
No, I havn't talked to him since.
Alexa Mosley says
Do you know his parents?
Ashley Nichole says
No
Alexa Mosley says
Is there any way you can find out where his family is? Or ask some of his old friends if they know where he is?
Ashley Nichole says
He really didn't have firend he said it was just me and his Church
**friend
Alexa Mosley says
What church did he attend?
Ashley Nichole says
Idk he didn't tell me in his words it was "Just a church"
Alexa Mosley says
Not a Christian church, I'm betting.
Ashley Nichole says
No
Alexa Mosley says
When I was captured, I didn't know where the building I was in was located.
Maybe it was in your state?
Ashley Nichole says
I don't know.
Alexa Mosley says
Do you ever do any form of unban exploration?
Do you ever go into abandoned buildings?
Ashley Nichole says
?
No
Alexa Mosley says
Can you think of any big, abandoned factory buildings made of concrete in your town or maybe you've heard of one in a town near yours?
One that's weird
Stands out because it's like a maze inside
Ashley Nichole says
Not that I know of.
Alexa Mosley says
:\
Ashley Nichole says
:/
brb I need to go to the bathroom haha
Alexa Mosley says
ok
Ashley Nichole says
hesplanningtogether
Alexa Mosley says
Planning for what?
Ashley Nichole says
tomakeherforget
Alexa Mosley says
Don't you let him do that
Ashley Nichole says
warnherhurryorelseeveryonewillforgetwhosheisbutyouwont
Alexa Mosley says
Ok
Ashley Nichole says
I'm backk :D
Alexa Mosley says
Read what he wrote
Ashley Nichole says
Theres nothing there
Alexa Mosley says
I knew that was coming.
Ashley Nichole says
It's just me saying brb
Alexa Mosley says
Our friend came back
Ashley Nichole says
...?
Alexa Mosley says
He told me our demon is going to make people "forget" you
Ashley Nichole says
WHY?!
Alexa Mosley says
I don't know
The thing is,
When he makes people "forget", they don't actually forget you
Ashley Nichole says
What do I do I don't have anywhere to go
Alexa Mosley says
He scares them into saying they've never seen you.
For me it was punshment for leaveing the children behind.
Ashley Nichole says
Children?
Alexa Mosley says
You'll read it later on
Ashley Nichole says
The little girl
Alexa Mosley says
Not her
Don't worry about it now
Do youhave a laptop?
Ashley Nichole says
Yes
Alexa Mosley says
Get that packed up, along with clothing and any meds you might need. Keep them with you at all times.
If people do forget you, you'll need to move on.
Ashley Nichole says
what?!
Alexa Mosley says
My mother was brave enough just to leave my clothes out for me to get. It probably could have cost her her life but she did it. I doubt many other people would be so brave.
Is there a starbucks in your town?
Ashley Nichole says
yeah
Alexa Mosley says
Ok, if there's a star bucks, there's internet.
Is there a homeless shelter?
Or a shelter for teens?
Ashley, you there?
Ash, you there? My internet cut off
Ashley Nichole says
Yeah I'm here, and scared
Alexa Mosley says
Ok, do you have an homeless or run away shelters in your town or near by towns?
*any
Ashley Nichole says
No
Alexa Mosley says
Any homeless communities? Like, a group of homeless who live together?
Most bigger towns have one
Ashley Nichole says
I live in the burbs
Alexa Mosley says
Oh dear...
Well, even in the suburbs, there's homeless
Even if it's just one or two
Ashley Nichole says
I have a church by me that feeds the homeless
Alexa Mosley says
That's good.
Now you'll need money
Gather all the money you have and pack it with your other things
Ashley Nichole says
I have a doller.... :|
Alexa Mosley says
Not even gift cards?
Ashley Nichole says
@@dollar
Nope
I am broke ha
What do you expect from a fifteen year old ha
Alexa Mosley says
From now until he makes the people around you forget, you need to find as much money as possible.
Or learn to beg
Ashley Nichole says
OK
Alexa Mosley says
Not much more I can say. I don't think there's anything we can do to stop him.
He's set to do this
Ashley Nichole says
hurrythereisnotmuchtimeimtryingtostallhim
Alexa Mosley says
Our friend says there's not much time
Forget the money.
Pack your things now
Get ready
Pack all the undergarmets and clothes you can
and your laptop
Ashley Nichole says
No not now I'm not ready
Alexa Mosley says
Hurry and get ready
Gett off the comp and start packing
Ashley Nichole says
I'll IM you when I'm done
Alexa Mosley says
Ok
No
wait
don't do that yet
Ashley Nichole says
yes?
Alexa Mosley says
Just pack up
Everything
Ashley Nichole says
Okay
Alexa Mosley says
Even the laptop
Wait until morning
THen head over to the starbucks
Use the internet there
if they're open
if not, go to the library
lie about your age if you have to get a new card
If they asky for ID, say you lost yours
It worked for me
Ashley Nichole says
Okay but I'm not going to lose contact with you I will pack up my laptop last.
Alexa Mosley says
Ok
But hurry
Ashley Nichole says
theycallmecody
Alexa Mosley says
Hi Cody
Why did you join them?
Ashley Nichole says
onceisawiwasforced
Alexa Mosley says
How did you learn about them?
Ashley Nichole says
church
iwascatholiciwasthechosenonetheysaid
Alexa Mosley says
H
Ha
I always knew the Catholics weremore than they appeared
Ashley Nichole says
ineedtoprotectashleyasmuchaspossible
Alexa Mosley says
Why did you lock her in her room?
Was he coming?
Ashley Nichole says
yes
Alexa Mosley says
I know what he wants with me. He needs a mother for those children. But what does he want with her?
Ashley Nichole says
asistertoyou
youneedhersheneedsyou
Alexa Mosley says
No.
She's just a kid
He can't take her
Tell him to let her go
I don't need a sister
I need him to let her go
It's me he wants and he needs to keep others out of this
Ashley Nichole says
icantchangehismind
Alexa Mosley says
Then I will
Ashley Nichole says
dont
Alexa Mosley says
I have to
Ashley Nichole says
hewillhurther
thisiswhysheneedsyousheneedsyoutokeeponthedownlow
Alexa Mosley says
I don't understand
Ashley Nichole says
ifhegetsthebothofyouhewillbemorepowerful
hewouldavengeallchildren
Alexa Mosley says
But not all children are hurt like Anita was
Ashley Nichole says
sheneedsyoutokeeponthedownlowandyouneedherbecausesheislinkedtomewhereimclosetohim
Alexa Mosley says
Isn't there a way to stop him?
Ashley Nichole says
shewasnothurtsheissafeforalliknow
notthatiknowofiwillkeepupdatewithyouonashleysaccount
Alexa Mosley says
No, she was hurt int he beginning, but your boss gave her to a good family
He knows not all adults hurt children
He doesn't tell you anything, does he?
Ashley Nichole says
thatswhatimeanbysafebutashleyneedsmyhelpmysafetyshewastheonlypersonthatwasnicetomeandhesuckedmymemoriestokowwhatiknewabouther
thatswhyhesafterhertobewithyoubecausebothofyouarepowerfultogether
Alexa Mosley says
How do we stop him?
Ashley Nichole says
idontknowbutsomethingmentallyaboutyouguyshassomethingtodowithittheywantyouasfarapartaspossible
Alexa Mosley says
Get Ashley. I need to talk to her
Ashley Nichole says
Yes?
Alexa Mosley says
Cody is keeping me updated on Twitter.
Just a minuet ago he said "No time left"
are you packed?
Ashley Nichole says
Yeah
Alexa Mosley says
Get ready
Ashley Nichole says
imkeepingherlockedinherroomfornow
Alexa Mosley says
Wait
he's locked you in
Ashley Nichole says
imstayingwithheraslongasican
Alexa Mosley says
He's doing it to protect you
The demon needs us together
Cody is trying to stop him but it's not easy
Ashley Nichole says
sincethebathroomisdownthehallwayforherilockalldoorswhensheneedstogodosomethingthatisoutsideoftheroom
Alexa Mosley says
Ashley, he said sincethebathroomisdownthehallwayforherilockalldoorswhensheneedstogodosomethingthatisoutsideoftheroom
Ashley Nichole says
itdosnthavetobephysicallytogetherjustmentallyisasmuchpowerful
Alexa Mosley says
He said we don't have to be physically together, just mentally. Together wemake him more powerful.
Cody, is she seeing any of this?
Ashley Nichole says
sheisinthebathroomgettingsomegirlynessessities
Alexa Mosley says
Let her see what we've been typing
she needs to know
Ashley Nichole says
Back, and what is he talking about
Alexa Mosley says
Cody, let her see
Hold on
I'll be back in a few
Ashley Nichole says
hurrynotime
Alexa Mosley says
Ok I'm back and I ran into a door...
Ok Ashley, can you see what he wrote?
Ashley?
Cody?
Ashley Nichole says
I'm back
He was Explaining everythig to me
Alexa Mosley says
Ok
Do you know where you'll go?
Ashley Nichole says
He said hes keeping me locked in my room, hes lurking he said
Alexa Mosley says
Well, when it's time to run, find an abandoned house. Bring lots of blankets with you and a pillow
Ashley Nichole says
ilockedallroomsimtryingtonotletherfamilyforget
Ok
Alexa Mosley says
Ok, you're doing good, Cody
Ashley Nichole says
ineedtoleaveherhesheregoodbye
Alexa Mosley says
Goodbye
Ashley, get ready.
Ashley Nichole says
It's locked I can't leave
I'm safe right?
Alexa Mosley says
I don't know.
Cody said he had to leave
THe demon is there
Ashley Nichole says
:O
Alexa Mosley says
Don't freak.
Just stay calm
Ashley Nichole says
im starting to have a pannic attack
Alexa Mosley says
Don'
*don't
Just keep calm
Ashley Nichole says
I don't know if I can
Alexa Mosley says
Meditate
Close your eyes
sit still
breath in and out
and think of happy things
Ashley Nichole says
I'm starting to calm down
Alexa Mosley says
Good
You know what I think of to keep calm?
Ashley Nichole says
What?
Alexa Mosley says
Well, you know that painting by claude monet? The japanese footbridge? Well I think of myself sitting on the bridge. I close my eyes and imagine me being there. I hear the water running so gently under me.
It's the water that keeps me calm
and the call of near by birds
Ashley Nichole says
that sounds pretty
Alexa Mosley says
Are you ok now?
Ashley?
Ashley Nichole says
Yeah
hes gone
Alexa Mosley says
Who?
Cody?
Ashley Nichole says
No him
Alexa Mosley says
Was he in your room?
Ashley Nichole says
no
Alexa Mosley says
How is he gone?
Ash?
Ashley Nichole says
Yeah but cody isn't
Alexa Mosley says
Cody said he ahd to leave
Ashley Nichole says
Hes here again
Alexa Mosley says
Oh
*I feel slow*
Ashley Nichole says
haha don't
but he wasnts to talk to you
Alexa Mosley says
Ok
Ashley Nichole says
hesgone
Alexa Mosley says
Where did he go?
Ashley Nichole says
backtotheplace
Alexa Mosley says
I hate that place
Why didn't he take her?
Ashley Nichole says
ihavesomethingaboutashleythathedosntemotionally
Alexa Mosley says
Oh?
Ashley Nichole says
ifeelikeitstoosoontoknow
forhertoknow
Alexa Mosley says
I understand
Ashley Nichole says
how
Alexa Mosley says
I can't explain it, but I just do
Ashley Nichole says
ineedtotellyousomething
Alexa Mosley says
Ok
Ashley Nichole says
aboutashleyandyou
Alexa Mosley says
Go on
Ashley Nichole says
iletyouhurtmesoyoucanleave
Alexa Mosley says
I still feel bad about that
Ashley Nichole says
dontbe
buttheresonethingthatyoucanttellashleythatiamgoingtotellyou
Alexa Mosley says
Ok
Ashley Nichole says
thereasonwhyhecantgettoherisbecasuetheresoneemotionthathedosnthavethatihavewithher
Alexa Mosley says
I see
Ashley Nichole says
iloveherthatswhatsseperatinghimandher
Alexa Mosley says
Aw <3
Ashley Nichole says
imprettysurethatswhatsstoppingherimnotsure
Alexa Mosley says
I see
Listen, Ineed to go. It's getting late.
Please protect her
I'll try to be on in the morning.
Ashley Nichole says
isomehowneedtocontactyou
becauseidontknowwhatsgoingtohappenandifyoupothputyourmindstoityoucankeephimoffforawhile
Alexa Mosley says
I'll think of something
But I really must go
Ashley Nichole says
doyouhaveacellphone
Alexa Mosley says
The family doesn't know except for two people and they're not tellin
And no
I don't
:(
I have to go
Goodbye


This is a lot to take in.

Monday, November 22, 2010

31

Crystal can see him too. And for once, she isn't scared. She likes him.

Last night I woke up to music and giggling. I looked around and saw she wasn't there. I followed the music to a room on the other side of the hall. It was the room that has this huge Victrola that I can't get to work.

It was playing an old record that's cracked on one side. It's song that goes "I'll be pretty and I'll be rare because I'll wear a smile and a ribbon in my hair." It's not even a 78. It shouldn't play correctly on an old Victrola.

Well, I went in and there she was, dancing around the room with the demon as a dance partner. It was actually pretty cute. He's a spaz dancer. When I walked in the Victrola stopped working and they both stopped and looked at me.

I didn't attack him. I didn't yell at him or run. I just sat down and they did the same. Crystal sat in my lap and played with my hair as the demon stared me down.

"Please don't take her," I said, "She has a family that loves her, even if she doesn't have a real home."

He didn't say anything. I didn't expect him to. But I knew he wouldn't take her. He couldn't. I don't know why but I just got a strong feeling that no matter what the situation was, he could never take her.

We sat for hours, or so it felt. I looked down at Crystal and when I looked up he was gone and I took her back to her mother. Told her that Crystal went exploring and fell asleep in another room and I found her curled up in a corner. At the moment, she doesn't need to know about the demon. And if Crystal tells, we'll all just assume it to be an imaginary friend.

Saturday, November 20, 2010

30

He came back.

He's been watching Reg and me since this morning.

He's right next to us on the other side of the window, watching me as I type, and I swear we're the only ones who cane see him because no one has looked our way. No one has stopped dead in their tracks at the sight of the freakishly tall humanoid with no face that's staring into Starbucks.

Or maybe he looks different to everyone else.

Friday, November 19, 2010

29

Reg is a schizo, I know this. He sees things that aren't there, but last night he saw the Demon.

We stayed up while the others slept. Neither of us felt OK. We weren't sick, just aware that something wasn't right. Around 12 in the morning we went to the bottom of the floor of the apartment to check it out for lack of anything better to do. Bruce said the owner of the apartments could never get the doors open down there, so we wanted to try.

After failing to open one door no matter how we tried to pick the locks, I turned to the stares and ran into Reg. He was looking up at the top where the Demon was. I pulled an EverymanHybrid and tried to hit him. Not with a baseball bat but what an old pipe that was on the floor near Reg. I hit the demon once, then he vanished. He didn't even try to stop me, he just took the blow and left. I swore he would try to kill me for it.

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

28

Reg is a cutie. He has this shaggy brown hair that covers up parts of his angelic face. He looks so innocent all the time, especially when he's looking off into space.

Last night it was so cold. The little heaters we had weren't doing so well (there's still electric in the apartments. The man who owns them knows we're here and he takes pity on us by giving us a few luxuries) so we all snuggled up together for warmth. Right before I fell asleep he kissed me. My first kiss.

Is it wrong to fall for a mentally unstable man? Because I totally am falling for him. ^__^

Sunday, November 14, 2010

27

I'm in Wilmington right now. I think I'll stay.

I've been taken in by a "family" of homeless people. We live in an old abandoned apartment complex from I'm guessing the 20's. Some of the rooms still have old furniture in it.

Bruce and Marta who are the "mother and father". The brothers and sisters are Latoya and her little girl Crystal (I guess crystal would be more of a niece), Bobby, Rufus, Marcus, Reg and me. There there's also "Uncle Bob", an old Nam vet who has some rather... interesting stories...

They're all very nice. Bruce has some medical troubles so we have to keep an eye on him. Marta has a hard time speaking English but she's like the grandmother every kid dreams of having.

Latoya is very motherly and kind and Crystal is a little angel but she's always afraid. She's 4 and always wants to be held. Bobby, Rufus and Marcus are like biological brothers, always goofing around. I call them the three stooges.

And then there's Reg. He's in his early 20's. Very shy and quiet. He sees things. Hears things. He's a schizo who ran away from home and stopped taking his meds. But he's happy here and I don't think we have to worry about him wondering off. He's kind of like crystal in that he's afraid of everything.

Oh, you may be wondering how I'm writing this. Well Uncle Bob has a way of getting his hands on things. Electronic things. Like laptops. And the near by Starbucks has no rule against cross dressing homeless men accompanying slightly grungy looking 18 year old girls to use the free wifi. But in his defense, Reg is freaking adorable.

And yes, I know someone's been updating my Twitter. It's creepy as hell, especially since whoever is doing it is obviously watching me, but you know what? I don't care. I know he's watching me. I just don't care.

And on being a selfish bitch; Yes, I left the children behind. I don't think it's possible to get them out of there.

Something I didn't tell you all when I tried to escape is that when I was going through the maze of a building, I came to the red door. I stood there and pondered on whether or not to take them with me. I was about to do it when I realized many of them are form a time before I was even born and I wondered if they were really even alive. How do I know they aren't ghosts of children? Yes, Anita was taken alive, but how do I know she wouldn't have been killed had she stayed, in order to keep her young forever?

I know it sounds far fetched, but you have to see it from my point of view, from the point of view of a person who has seen things that are impossible. Anything is possible.

And besides, they were happy there together. What if I had taken them out of there and they weren't dead? What would have happened to them? Would they go to orphanages or abusive foster homes? Anita was lucky. Anita found a foster family that loved her. But I wasn't going to take the chance of having one of those sweet little children being placed in an abusive environment when they were taken to that place in order to get away from one.

So yeah, I'm a selfish bitch. You're right.

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

26

Before I leave town (yes, I'm just now leaving), I guess I should tell you some small, probably unimportant details.

I went back to my parents apartment and found a large rolling suit case laying in the driveway. I looked inside and saw that it was my clothes and an old bunny plush I've had since I was little. There was also some shampoo, soap, a tooth brush and toothpaste. I looked over to the door and saw my mother looking at me through the window in the middle, then quickly ducked back away from it. She looked so sad.

As I walked to the library, a well dressed woman grabbed my hand and pulled me into an alley way. She didn't say anything but she did put $50 in my hands and casually walked away. I have no clue who she was or why she did it, but I'm thankful. I didn't even get a chance to thank her. :(

I felt the need to cut my hair. It's no longer down to the small of my back but rests on my shoulders. Don't know why, though. Maybe at the time I thought even the littlest thing I could do to make the demon not recognize me would help, but I was wrong.

Well, as I type this, it's 1:00. I'm leaving now. I don't know when I'll be able to write again. Please be patient.